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Look how Plast got a redesign! by KiraitheEchidna
Look how Plast got a redesign!
That's right! My long lost character is back and changed big time! Also, the shading is complete crap, but I don't care! (Okay, that's a lie) I decided that most of my characters are going to be redesigned with an Anthro style. No idea how the hell I'm going to do Tang.

Hopefully later I'll post more before I disappear again, but as of right now, I'm back on dA. So in the meantime, have some Plast!

Art and character belongs to me.
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Hey. It's been a while. A long while. I actually just now remembered that I didn't say anything to my disappearance. I'm still not going to be that active, mostly because there isn't really for me to post. Barely drawing anything, barely playing the piano, barely writing music... My interest in everything is washing away. Things have been hard for me here, and I know people hate it when people complain here on deviantART, but I don't know what else to do.

I broke up with my boyfriend a while ago. We were together for more than two years. All of my other friends are off in college all over the place, out of reach. Some an hour or two away, some in other states. And here I am, not even in community college and barely working any hours. Stepmother is pissed off at me and keeps sending threats of kicking me out of the house. Dad won't help or listen. Or understand the problem, because bring depressed means you're lazy in this household. Even though I already been diagnosed for depression.

Where are my friends? Where are the people to spend time with? To have fun? To laugh? To talk about problems? My doctor noted that my depression has gotten a lot worse and amped up the amount of medicine to take, as well as taking a new one at it. She also considered for me to go to a mental hospital... *sigh* Is taking medicine, seeing doctors and going to hospitals really going to help? I want to believe that being able to be with my friends again will help me, but now I'm thinking that this is a type of loneliness that lingers for a long time.

Who the hell am I? What have I become? Where did the loving girl who loved being creative go? I want her back. I want my friends back. I want the simpler days of childhood back. But this stuff that I want... No matter how hard I work for it, I will never get what I want. Time's up.
  • Mood: Isolated
  • Listening to: Parents argue and sister screaming
  • Eating: McDonalds
  • Drinking: Coke (think this is my third one today)
Do you know that depression really blows? Sure, you cry and are down a lot more and don't have energy in anything, but that's not what I'm talking about. People always say that when you have a problem, tell someone. And most likely they'll say "It's going to be alright." I hate that phrase. It's such a vague and ugly lie.

"It's going to be alright." What the hell does that do? Seriously. What do a few words actually do to help someone? It doesn't. To me, that phrase shows me that you do not want to hear the other person's problem. Basically it says "Shut up and be happy already." If you're down and depressed, you have a problem and you're complaining too much. No one really wants to listen to your problems, but just wants you to stop being down. "There's no need to be down." Where is the action in those words? Are you actually doing anything to change this person's life? Words mean nothing if there isn't any emotion or action behind it.

Another phrase I hate is "You don't have it as bad as other people." I f**king hate being told that! I hate being compared! Hate it! Because I don't have something super serious like you hear on the news or in a story. And what happens to those "special" people? Dead. If I don't have problems that bad, do you want to wait until it does get that bad and I'm on the risk of committing suicide? It doesn't matter if I'm not part of a world problem like child abuse or poverty, but a problem is a problem. Just holding out from helping until a life is in risk? By then it's too late. A persons problem doesn't need to be the worst thing in the world in order to deserve to get help.

So, for those people who those phrases, stop. To me, those words mean nothing. Actually, they hurt me. Whenever I hear those words, all I feel is feeling more isolated than before. Because being alone in a room is one thing, but being in a crowded room with no one to listen and talk to is another. Being ignored hurts a lot more than being left alone.


Sorry for my rant. I just had to get this off my chest.
  • Mood: Isolated
  • Listening to: Hello by Adele
  • Reading: Batman: Endgame (Great story arc!)
  • Watching: Inside Out
  • Playing: Pokemon X on 3DS
  • Eating: Tuna and crackers
Carnivore2Die4 by KiraitheEchidna
Carnivore2Die4
Finally got this one. Just a headshot of my concept character...who doesn't have a name. I been calling her Lavender, but if you got any ideas, please let me hear it! ^^

Check me nerd out on Vine at Carnivore2Die4!
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KiraitheEchidna

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Hello. Welcome to my page.

I don't really have much to say right now. I been gone from deviantART for quite some time due to depression, but I'm slowly coming out of it, thanks to my sweetie who is supporting me. It's been so long since I really drawn anything, so forgive my time away from here.

You can also find me on SoundCloud as Carnivore2Die4. I mostly make electronic music, but not always.

soundcloud.com/carnivore2die4

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Hey. It's been a while. A long while. I actually just now remembered that I didn't say anything to my disappearance. I'm still not going to be that active, mostly because there isn't really for me to post. Barely drawing anything, barely playing the piano, barely writing music... My interest in everything is washing away. Things have been hard for me here, and I know people hate it when people complain here on deviantART, but I don't know what else to do.

I broke up with my boyfriend a while ago. We were together for more than two years. All of my other friends are off in college all over the place, out of reach. Some an hour or two away, some in other states. And here I am, not even in community college and barely working any hours. Stepmother is pissed off at me and keeps sending threats of kicking me out of the house. Dad won't help or listen. Or understand the problem, because bring depressed means you're lazy in this household. Even though I already been diagnosed for depression.

Where are my friends? Where are the people to spend time with? To have fun? To laugh? To talk about problems? My doctor noted that my depression has gotten a lot worse and amped up the amount of medicine to take, as well as taking a new one at it. She also considered for me to go to a mental hospital... *sigh* Is taking medicine, seeing doctors and going to hospitals really going to help? I want to believe that being able to be with my friends again will help me, but now I'm thinking that this is a type of loneliness that lingers for a long time.

Who the hell am I? What have I become? Where did the loving girl who loved being creative go? I want her back. I want my friends back. I want the simpler days of childhood back. But this stuff that I want... No matter how hard I work for it, I will never get what I want. Time's up.
  • Mood: Isolated
  • Listening to: Parents argue and sister screaming
  • Eating: McDonalds
  • Drinking: Coke (think this is my third one today)

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Madam-Massacre Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2016  Student Artist
Apologise on the wait! I threw in a chibi for waiting for so long! Hope you like it please let me know if there is anything you want changing c:
Poppy 20160201 0001 by Madam-Massacre
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KiraitheEchidna Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Oh my glob! She's aborable! It's perfect, Storm! Thank you. :heart:
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Halem1991 Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2016  Professional General Artist
Thanks for fav the deviant "Inkling dad"!!!!!
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FOX-POP Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2016  Professional Digital Artist
happy birthday!
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KiraitheEchidna Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you! ^^
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Axe-Cell Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy Birthday, friend!
I do hope that you've had a great time on your birthday!
You're awesome!
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KiraitheEchidna Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you, friend. I will! ^^
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MeganWinters Featured By Owner Apr 28, 2015   Digital Artist
Hi :hug:
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KiraitheEchidna Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hello! How are you doing?
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MeganWinters Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2015   Digital Artist
Fine thanks, you?
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